1886-06 — A Drama in Muslin — Book 3 Chapter 3

London: Vizetelly & Co., 1 June 1886, pages 261-274, 5,628 words

CHAPTER III.

Then Alice heard that the baby was dead, and that a little money would be required to bury it. Another effort was made; the money was sent: and the calm of the succeeding weeks was only disturbed by an uneasy desire to see May back in Galway, and hear her say that her terrible secret was over and done with for ever. One day she was startled by a quick trampling of feet in the corridor, and May rushed into the room. She threw herself into Alice’s arms and kissed her with effusion, with tears. The girls looked at each other long and nervously. One was pale and over-worn, her spare figure was buttoned into a faded dress, and her hair was rolled into a plain knot. The other was superb with health, and her face was full of rose-bloom. She was handsomely dressed in green velvet, and her copper hair flamed and flashed beneath a small bonnet with mauve strings.

"Oh, Alice, how tired and pale you look! You have been working too hard, and all for me. How can I thank you? I shall never be able to thank you... but believe me, it makes me so unhappy... I cannot find words to tell you how grateful I am — but I am grateful, Alice... indeed I am.”

"I am sure you are, dear. I did my best for you, it is true; and thank heaven I succeeded, and no one knows... I do not think that anyone even suspects.”

"No, not a soul. We managed it very well, didn’t we, dear? And the reverend mother behaved splendidly — she just took the view that you said she would. She saw that no good would come of telling mamma about me when I made her understand that if a word were said my misfortune would be belled all over the country in double-quick time. But, Alice dear, I had a terrible time of it; two months waiting in that horrible little lodging, afraid to go out for fear someone would recognise me; it was awful. And often I hadn’t enough to eat, for when you are in that state you can’t eat everything, and I was afraid to spend any money. You did your best to keep me supplied, dear, good guardian angel that you are." Then the impulsive girl flung herself on Alice’s shoulders, and kissed her. "But there were times when I was hard up, oh, much more hard up than you thought I was; for I didn’t tell you everything: if I had you would have worried yourself into your grave. Oh, I had a frightful time of it! If one is married one is petted and consoled and encouraged, but alone in a lonely lodging — oh, it was frightful.”

"And what about the poor baby?" said Alice, whose disappointment rose like an acid odour to her head.

"Oh, isn’t it dreadful of me? I was forgetting all about it. The poor little thing died, as I wrote you, about ten days after it was born. I nursed it; and I was so sorry for it. I really was; but of course... well it seems a hard thing to say — but I don’t know what I should have done with it if it had lived. Life isn’t so happy, is it, even under the best of circumstances?”

Alice bit her lips. She was beset with dark and painful emotions, and words failing her, the conversation came to a sudden close. At last the nervous silence that intervened was broken by May:

"We were speaking about money. I will repay you all I owe you some day, Alice dear. I will save up all the money I can get out of mother. She is such a dear old thing, but I cannot understand her; not a penny did she send me for the first six weeks, and then she sent me £25; and it was lucky she did, for the doctor’s bill was something tremendous. And I bought this dress and bonnet with what was left... I ought to have repaid you first thing; but I forgot it until I had ordered the dress.”

"I assure you it does not matter, May; I shall never take the money from you. If I did, it would take away all the pleasure I have had in serving you.”

"Oh, but I will insist, Alice dear, I could not think of such a thing. But there’s no use in discussing that point until I get the money.... Tell me, what do you think of my bonnet?”

"I think it very nice indeed; and I never saw you looking better."

When May left the room Alice felt her despair growing thicker; it descended upon her gloomily, silently. Was this all she had worked for, was this all she had striven for? She had attained her end, but, oh, how trivial it appeared when compared with the terrible anxiety that had gone to achieve it. And, without pausing to consider if she were right, her soul revolted from accepting as an adequate result of her sufferings this somewhat gross picture of satisfaction. And is it not ever so? Does not the inevitable grossness of those who fight in the outward battle always jar the pensive sadness of others who see life from a distance as a faintly drawn landscape veiled in delicate twilight, and whose victories are won over themselves rather than over circumstances and opponents?

And in her present mood the fresh colour, the new dress and bonnet, the triumphant air, were infinitely painful and repellent to Alice. She could not rid herself of a sense of injustice done, nor could she avoid seeing that it was she, and not May, who wore the penitential garb and mien. Then life appeared to her a little as it did to Cecilia — as a libidinous monster couching in a cave, with red jaws dripping with foul spume. Could Cecilia be right after all? If the elegant sanctity of cloistered nuns be the only possible life, and all joys vile except passionless and intellectual interests... if.... Oh, if... "But no, no," the girl wailed out in despair. “There is no absolute right; what is right for one is not right for all. She does not feel what I feel — she does not suffer as I suffer." The old, the terrible dream, the grey fear of having been born to die without having lived, again possessed her, again laid hands upon her, held her with its cold, cruel, and strangling fingers. She shuddered. The world disappeared — was engulfed in the quick fever of the flesh; and, her teeth chattering slightly, she said, "I have my work at least," and, with her brain throbbing — a throbbing that died slowly away as the mind cleared — she wrote steadily for two hours.

And thus ended, ended as completely as if everyone concerned in it had been sunk in the deepest depths of the sea, May Gould’s Dublin adventure. It was scarcely spoken of again, and when they met at a ball given by the officers stationed in Galway, Alice was astonished to find that she experienced no antipathy whatever towards this rich-blooded young person. "My dear guardian angel, come and sit with me in this corner; I’d sooner talk to you than anyone — we won’t go down yet awhile — we’ll make the men wait." May was full of affectionate impulses, and her outspokenness was often inexpressibly seductive. "Now I won’t let you go, dear," she would say to her girl friends when they came to see her; “we have only a leg of mutton — mother is economising — but you must stay and eat it with us." Her charm was the ever-varying but ever-recognisable charm that all frankly sensual natures exercise; and when she put her arms round Alice’s waist and told her the last news of Violet and her marquis, Alice abandoned herself to the caress and listened.

Violet’s marriage and the collection of rents were now the two subjects that possessed the heart of Galway. Rents were being paid; and, as an old suit of clothes drawn out of its slumber in the back of the wardrobe will come out looking spick and span, Galway in the autumn of 1882 bloomed into all its old freshness and vigour. The landlords cried the Land Act was ruin, but only to conceal their joy. For they knew that if the Government fixed their rents, the Government would have to enforce the payment of those rents. The Arrears Act had passed, and it would put large sums of money into their pockets. The Land League, which Mr. Forster’s Coercion Act had failed to put down, but, as we have already seen, had not failed to disorganise, had during the imprisonment of its leaders become broken up into small parties. And these, swollen with rancorous jealousies and separate ambitions, had, in their efforts to crush each other, almost forgotten the existence of their common foe — landlordism, and great wrongs had been committed. The burden of terror had slipped from the landlords’ shoulders on to the peasantry. All who had private grievances had taken advantage of these seasons of lawlessness to avenge them. No one could trust his next-door neighbour. Armed gangs demanding money broke into the cottages by night. It had become plain to all that rent-paying was preferable to an occult, an ever-imminent danger from which none could make sure of defending themselves. Therefore the Crimes Bill, wisely and judiciously administered by Lord Spencer, came an equal blessing to all, and the lurid phantom of the League vanished; yes, vanished suddenly as a card up the sleeve of a skilful conjurer.

The harvest had been plentiful, stock of all kinds was in great demand, a craze for money-making had set in; none could afford to run the risk of having his cattle houghed, and in a moment — literally in six weeks — all the colossal machinery, so far-reaching in its consequences, tumbled into a dust so fine that the winds of autumn seemed to have carried it away. Peasants and landlords rubbed their eyes, stared aghast, and then, laughing like people awakening from a nightmare, they resumed their ordinary occupations. The change was as marvellous as any transformation-scene. People thought differently, spoke differently, acted differently; stock was bought and sold without restrictions of any kind; carriages filled with pink-dressed young ladies traversed the country, and the training of horses occupied every manly and many a female mind. The stoning of the hounds, the poisoning of the covers, were only remembered as an ugly dream; in a trice the gentry disbanded their black-coated bodyguards, and resumed their own red coats. Mr. Scully summed up the situation when he said, "Rents paid, cattle high, Land League dead." He might have added, “And my daughter’s going to marry a marquis." Mrs. Barton wondered he did not, but Mr. Scully was a man of business, and he never interfered with his womenfolk.                 

Mrs. Barton had, indeed, thought of dismissing him from the agency, but after much consideration she had decided that this bit of revenge would keep, and would be employed with greater effect later on. For the present it was clear to her that she would have to pretend that she had never gone in for Lord Kilcarney, and make Violet Scully a handsome present. To do this was disagreeable, and it was, if possible, still more galling to listen with a smiling face to all the different accounts of the wedding with which Mrs. Barton was afflicted. Mrs. Gould was the chief torturer. All letters concerning the event she forwarded to Brookfield. She was full of information concerning the bitterness with which the family viewed the match, she had a store of racy anecdotes of how the Ladies Burke had received Mrs. Scully, and she could furnish the latest details of a recently-resuscitated legend. For it was now formally asserted, and with all due emphasis, that thirty years ago the late marquis had entered a grocer’s shop in Galway to buy a pound of tea for an importuning beggar: “And what do you think my dear? — it was Mrs. Scully who served it out to him." And when somebody, it never was known who, but it was said to have been Olive, suggested that it was all fate, for Violet had played the beggar-maid to King Cophetua, the brain-excitement grew acute as that attendant on solemn rites, — and, overcome with mysticity, the women lay prone before the coincidence.

At such stories Mrs. Barton laughed bewitchingly; but Mrs. Gould’s mission in life was neither to soothe troubled waters nor to fan raging fires, she merely propagated gossip industriously. Her information might be dubious, but it was always abundant; and if her words were sometimes as balm, they were sometimes as poison. She is now declaring that the Kilcarney estates will still yield two thousand a year to the young couple to live upon; a grey cloud steals over Mrs. Barton’s face, but Mrs. Gould continues ruthlessly:

"And Kilcarney Castle!" She would read from a letter she had received only that morning from a cousin of hers. "There are three avenues and five staircases, and six towers;" and the three avenues, the five staircases, and the six towers passioned the county of Galway for more than a month.

But, although the foremost, Mrs. Gould was not the only news-depot in the county. Everyone had arranged with their Dublin friends for a constant supply of the latest details, and during the winter months the letters fell like rain; and they were circulated like magazines. The Brennans, the Duffys, the Ladies Cullen were in constant communication. An on-dit about a wedding present was sufficient cause for a visit; a scrap of information concerning the bridesmaids took in the female mind the importance that the fixing of a judicial rent did in the male. The orchestra of praise was gradually working up to a crescendo. The riches that awaited the bride were shrieked forth by the fiddle-like voices of the Brennans and Duffys, and, trumpeting loudly, the Ladies Cullen announced news from the peerage. For, besides the Marquis’s immediate relatives, Violet would be connected with an infinite number of grand people; a duke, it was whispered, was among the number. Lord So-and-so had presented her with one of the finest pearl necklaces that money could buy, and the Marquis of So-and-so with a tiara of diamonds, and Earls of This and That with sets of Sèvres china. There were bracelets, oriental vases, dressing-cases, card-cases, fans; and all the correspondents spoke rapturously of a marble group of clustering doves.

Then there was the trousseau. Everybody brought fresh details; picturesque descriptions of the trimmings of the morning gowns were given, and elaborate accounts in technical language were forwarded of the evening toilettes — toilettes that she would wear in Roman society, for it was understood that the bride and bridegroom would proceed direct to Italy. Nothing was omitted. There were to be so many pairs of embroidered slippers, so many embroidered pocket-handkerchiefs — mention was even made of the lace-trimmed chemises and drawers en batiste, with a blue ribbon above the knee.

The letters continued to fall like rain, and the country lived in a state of nervous irritation. The pale cheeks of Lord Rosshill’s seven daughters waxed a hectic red; the Ladies Cullen grew more angular, and smiled and cawed more cruelly; Mrs. Barton, the Brennans, and Duffys cackled more warmly and continuously; and Bertha, the terror of the débutantes, beat the big drum more furiously than ever. The postscripts to her letters were particularly terrible: "And to think that the grocer’s daughter should come in for all this honour. It is she who will turn up her nose at us at the Castle next year." "Ah, had I known what was going to happen it is I who would have pulled the fine feathers out of her." Day after day, week after week, the agony was protracted, until every heart grew weary of the strain put upon it and sighed for relief. But it was impossible to leave off thinking and talking; and the various accounts of orange-blossoms and the bridesmaids, that in an incessant postal stream were poured during the month of January into Galway, seemed to provoke rather than abate the marriage fever. The subject was inexhaustible, and little else was spoken of until it was time to pack up trunks and prepare for the Castle season. The bride, it was stated, would be present at the second Drawing-room in March.

Nevertheless Alice noticed that the gladness of last year was gone out of their hearts; none expected much, and all remembered a little of the disappointments they had suffered. A little of the book had been read; the lines of white girls standing about the pillars in Patrick’s Hall, the empty waltz tunes and the long hours passed with their chaperons were terrible souvenirs to pause upon. Still they must fight on to the last, there is no going back — there is nothing for them to go back to. There is no hope in life for them but the vague hope of a husband. So they keep on to the last, becoming gradually more spiteful and puerile, their ideas of life and things growing gradually narrower, until, in their thirty-fifth or fortieth year, they fall into the autumn heaps, to lie there forgotten, or to be blown hither or thither by every wind that blows — poor old women who have never lived at all.

Two of Lord Rosshill’s daughters had determined to try their luck again, and a third was undecided; the Ladies Cullen said that they had their school to attend to and could not leave Galway; poverty compelled the Brennans and Duffys to remain at home. Alice would willingly have done the same, but, tempted by the thin chance that she might meet with Harding, she yielded to her mother’s persuasions. But in this she was disappointed, and she found Dublin more lamentable and soul-wearying than ever. It presented no new feature. The same absence of conviction, the same noisy gossiping, and inability to see over the horizon of Merrion Square, the same servile adoration of officialism, the same meanness committed to secure an invitation to the Castle, the same sing-song waltz tunes, the same miserable, mocking, melancholy, muslin hours were endured by the same white martyrs. The marchioness passes down the room, and their eyes glisten with envy and their lips suck greedily at the probability that she will be sold up in a year. But the present is the present, and she enjoys it. She will sometimes acknowledge acquaintanceship with her old schoolfellows; and with the Bartons she is especially affable; she has fought and beaten them; — she can afford to be generous, and she often dines with them in Mount Street.

And if the Castle remained unchanged, Mount Street lost nothing of its original aspect. Experience had apparently taught Mrs. Barton nothing; she knew but one set of tricks — if they failed she repeated them: she was guided by the indubitableness of instinct rather than by the more wandering light that is reason. Mr. Barton, who it was feared might talk of painting, and so distract the attention from more serious matters, was left in Galway, and amid eight or nine men collected here, there, and everywhere out of the hotels and barrackrooms, the three ladies sat down to dinner. Mrs. Barton, who could have talked to twenty men, and have kept them amused, was severely handicapped by the presence of her daughters. Olive, at the best of times, could do little more than laugh; and as Alice never had anything to say to the people she met at her mother’s house, the silences that hung over the Mount Street dinner-table were funereal in intensity and length. From time to time questions were asked relating to the Castle, the weather, and the theatre.

Therefore beyond the fact that neither Lord Kilcarney nor Mr. Harding was present, the girls passed their second season in the same manner as their first. Les deux pièces de résistance at Mount Street were a dissipated young English lord and a gouty old Irish distiller; and Mrs. Barton was making every effort to secure one of these. A pianist was ordered to attend regularly at four o’clock. And now if Alice was relieved of the duty of spelling through the doleful strains of "Dream Faces," she was forced to go round and round with the distiller until an extra glass of port forced the old gentleman to beg mercy of Mrs. Barton. At one o’clock in the morning the young lord used to enter the Kildare Street Club extenuated. But not much way was made with either, and when one returned to London and the other to a sick-bed, Olive abandoned herself to a series of flirtations. At the Castle she danced with all who asked her, and she sat out dances in the darkest corners of the most distant rooms with every officer stationed in Dublin. Mrs. Barton never refused an invitation to any dance, no matter how low, and in all the obscure "afternoons" in Mount Street and Pembroke Street Olive’s blonde cameo-like face was seen laughing with every paltry official of Cork Hill and the gewgaw gig-men of Kildare Street.

In May the Bartons went abroad. Then followed the interminable series of flirtations with foreign titles. French Counts, Spanish Dukes, Russian Princes, Swedish noblemen of all kinds, and a goodly number of English refugees with irreproachable neckties and a taste for baccarat. And in the balmy gardens of Ostend and Boulogne, jubilant with June and the overture of Masaniello, Milord and Mrs. Barton walked in front, talking and laughing gracefully. Olive chose him who flattered her the most outrageously; and Alice strove hard to talk to the least objectionable of the men she was brought in contact with. Amid these specious talkers there were a few who reminded her of Mr. Harding, and she hoped later on to be able to turn her present experiences to account. There was, of course, much dining at cafés and dining at the casinos, and evening walks along the dark shore. Alice often feared for her sister, but the girl’s vanity and lightheadedness were her safeguards, and she returned to Galway only a little wearied by the long chase after amusement.

The soft Irish summer is pleasant after the glare of foreign towns. Now all the mountain perspectives are veiled in haze, in Ireland an unfailing promise of a continuance of fair weather, and the country lies green-dozing in the silvery light. You know it all! The rickety stone walls and the herds of cattle, the deep curved lines of the plantations of the domain lands, the long streaks of brown bog, the flashing tarns of bog-water, and the ruined cottage. For Alice there was much charm in these familiar signs; and, although she did not approve of — although she would not care ever to meet them again — the people she had met at Ostend and Dieppe had interested her. They were at least neither so narrow-minded nor so ignorant as the Dubliners; and from them, although not in a great and effective way, she had picked up ideas of the variety of life, and now with these ideas germinating in her, a time of quiet, a time for reading and thinking, came after the noise of casinos and the glitter of fireworks as a welcome change. The liberty she had enjoyed, the sense it had brought with it that she was neither a doll nor a victim, had rendered her singularly happy. The plot of a new story was singing in her head, the characters flitted before her eyes, and to think of them, or to tell Cecilia of them, was a pleasure sufficient for all her daily desire. Olive, too, was glad. The sunlight has gone into her blood, and she romps with her mother and milord amid the hay, or, stretched at length, she listens to the green air of the lawn, and her dreams ripple like water along a vessel’s side, and the white wake of the past bubbles and glistens behind her; and when the life of the landscape is burnt out, and the day in dying seems to have left its soul behind, she stands watching, her thoughts curdling gently, the elliptical flight of the swallows through the gloom, and the flutter of the bats upon the dead sky.

But the evenings were long and silent, and the thoughtless brain, fed for many weeks upon noise and glitter, soon began to miss its accustomed stimulants. In the morning she sat with Barnes and tried to occupy herself with a little fancywork, but the mechanical action of the fingers it involved irritated her, and the love-stories told by the smiling maid fostered the nerve-atrophy from which the girl suffered. And all the quick febrile revulsions of feeling were manifested in sudden twitchings of the face, and abrupt movements of the limbs. Mrs. Barton was keenly alive to what was passing in her daughter’s mind, and she insisted on Olive’s accompanying her to the tennis parties with which the county teemed. Sir Charles, Mr. Adair, and even poor Sir Richard were put forward as the most eligible of men.

"It is impossible to say when the big fish will be caught; it is often the last try that brings him to land," murmured Mrs. Barton. But Olive had lost courage, and could fix her thoughts on no one. And, often when they returned home, she would retire to her room to have a good cry. One evening Alice found her lying on her bed sobbing bitterly.

"Oh, Olive,"exclaimed Alice, "what is the matter with you? What are you crying about in that way?”

"Leave me alone, Alice; oh, go away.... don’t tease me, don’t tease me.... I only want to be left alone.”

"But listen, dear; can I do anything for you?”

"You! no, no, indeed you can’t.... I only want to be left alone; that isn’t much to ask.... I am so miserable, so unhappy; I wish I were dead."

"Dead?”

"Yes, dead; what’s the use of living when I know that I shall be an old maid?.... We shall all be old maids.... What’s the use of being pretty, either, when Violet, bag of bones that she is, got the marquis after all?.... I have been out two seasons now, and nothing has come of all the trying. And yet I was the belle of the season, wasn’t I, Alice?" And now, looking more than ever like a cameo Niobe, Olive stared at her sister piteously. "Oh, yes, Alice, I know I shall be an old maid; and isn’t it dreadful, and I the belle of the season? It makes me so unhappy.... no one ever heard of the belle (and I was the belle not of one but of two seasons) remaining an old maid.... I can understand a lot of ugly things not getting married, but I — ”

Alice smiled, and half ironically she asked herself if Olive really suffered. No heart-pang was reflected in those blue mindless eyes; there was no heart to wound: only a little foolish vanity had been bruised.

"And to think," cried this whimpering beauty, when Alice had seen her successfully through a flood of hysterical tears, "that I was silly enough to give up dear Edward.... I am punished for it now.... indeed I am; and it was very wicked of me — it was a great sin. I broke his heart. But you know, Alice dear, that it was all mamma’s fault; she urged me on; and you know how I refused, how I resisted her.... Didn’t I resist — tell me? You know, and why won’t you say that I did resist?”

"You did, indeed, Olive; but you must not distress yourself, or you will make yourself ill.”

"Yes, perhaps you are right, there’s nothing makes one look so ugly as crying.... and if I lost my looks and met Edward he might not care for me.... he’d be disappointed, I mean — but I haven’t lost my looks; I am just as pretty as I was when I came out first. Am I not, Alice?”

"Indeed you are, dear.”

"You don’t think I have gone off a bit — now do tell me? and I want to ask you what you think of my hair in a fringe; Papa says it isn’t classical, but that’s nonsense. I wish I knew how Edward would like me to wear it.”

“But you mustn’t think of him, Olive dear; you know mother would never hear of it.”

"I can’t help thinking of him.... And now I will tell you something, Alice, if you promise me on your word of honour not to scold me, and, above all, not to tell mamma.”

"I promise.”

"Well, the other day I was walking at the end of the lawn feeling so very miserable. You don’t know how miserable I feel; you are never miserable, for you think of nothing but your books. Well, mind you have given me your word not to tell anyone... I saw Captain Hibbert riding along the road, and when he saw me he stopped his horse and kissed his hand to me.”

"And what did you do? ”

"I don’t know what I did... he called me, and then I saw Milord coming along the road, and I fled; but, oh, isn’t it cruel of mamma to have forbidden Edward to come and see us? and he loves me as much as ever, I know he does.”

This was not the moment to advise her sister against clandestine meetings with Captain Hibbert; she was sobbing violently, and Alice had to assure her again and again that no one who had been the belle of the season had ever remained an old maid. But Alice (having well in mind the fate that had befallen May Gould) grew not a little alarmed when, in the course of next week, she suddenly noticed that Olive was in the habit of going out for long walks alone: and that she invariably returned in a state of high spirits, all the languor and weariness seeming to have fallen from her.

Alice once thought of following her sister. She watched her open the wicket-gate and walk across the meadows towards the Lawler domain. There was a bypath there leading to the highroad, but the delicacy of their position in relation to the owners prevented the Bartons from ever making use of it. Nor did Alice fail to notice that about the same time, Barnes, on the pretence of arranging the room for the evening, would strive to drive her from her writing-table, and beds were made and unmade, dresses were taken out of the wardrobe, and importuning conversations were begun. But, taking no heed of the officious maid, Alice, her thoughts tense with anxiety, sat at her window watching the slender figure of the girl growing dim in the dying light. Once she did not return until it was quite dark, and, reproaching herself bitterly for having remained so long silent, Alice walked across the pleasure-grounds to meet her.

"What, you here?" cried Olive, surprised at finding her sister waiting for her at the wicket. She was out of breath; she had evidently been running.

“Yes, Olive, I was anxious to speak to you — you must know that it is very wrong to meet Captain Hibbert, — and in the secrecy of a wood!”

"Who told you I had been to meet Captain Hibbert? I suppose you have been following me?”

"No, Olive, I have not, and you have no right to accuse me of such meanness. I have not been following you, but I cannot help putting two and two together. You told me something of this once before, and since then you have scarcely missed an evening.”

"Well, I don’t see any harm in meeting Edward; he is going to marry me.”

"Going to marry you?”

"Yes, going to marry me; is there anything so very extraordinary in that?.... Mamma had no right to break off the match, and I am not going to remain an old maid.”

“And have you told mother about this?"

"No, where’s the use, since she won’t hear of it?”

"And are you going to run away with Captain Hibbert?”

"Run away with him!" exclaimed Olive, laughing strangely. "No, of course I am not.”        .        ,

"And how are you to marry him if you don’t tell mother?”

"I shall tell her when the time comes to tell her. And now, Alice dear, you will promise not to betray me, won’t you? You will not speak about this to anyone, you promise me? if you did I know I should go mad or kill myself.”

"But when will you tell mother of your resolution to marry Captain Hibbert?”

"Tell her? I’ll tell her to-morrow if you like; that is to say if you will give me your word of honour not to speak to her about my meeting Edward in the Lawler Wood.”

Afterwards Alice often wondered at her dulness in not guessing the truth. But at the time it did not occur to her that Olive might have made arrangements to elope with Captain Hibbert; and, on the understanding that all was to be explained on the following day, she promised to keep her sister’s secret.