Evelyn Innes 1901 — Chapter 11

London: T. Fisher Unwin, 8 July 1901, pages 43-53, 6,867 words

XI

While Elsa sang her dream, he realised the depth of his folly. If something were to happen? If they were to find Mr. Innes waiting at the door of the hotel? If he were robbed of her, it would serve him right.

“You’re tired, Evelyn; you’re too tired to listen.”

“Yes, I’m tired, let’s go; give me my cloak.”

"I don’t care much for the nuptial music," he remarked accidentally; and then, feeling obliged to take advantage of the slip of the tongue, he said, "Lohengrin and Elsa are in the bridal chamber in the next act.”

He felt her hand tremble on his arm.

"In two years hence you’ll be singing here.... But you don’t answer.”

“Owen dear, I’m thinking of you now.”

Her answer was a delicious flattery, and he hurried her to the carriage. The moment his arm was about her she leaned over him, and when their lips parted he uttered a little cry. But in the middle of the sitting-room she stopped and faced him, barring the way. He took her cloak from her shoulders.

“Owen dear, if anything should happen?”

“No, nothing will happen. Have I not said that the cradle and the chef-d'oeuvre are irreconcilable.”

“I shall be disappointed in you, Owen, if you speak flippantly.”

“Well, I thought that was what you meant.”

"So I did," she said, with a sigh.

He put his arm round her, and leading her he began to hum the bridal music which they had not heard.

"Oh, what a beautiful phrase," she said, suddenly escaping from him, "let me hear it on the piano." She insisted, and he played all he could remember of it. But she did not seem to wish to leave the piano.

“Why do you wish to loiter here, Evelyn?”

He put his arm round her, and this time she let him lead her, and when they had passed the threshold she said —

“Owen, it is a great mystery, and you do not seem to perceive any of it.”

“I am thinking of you now, dear, and of your hands and hair, and of those sweet eyes which turn from blue to mauve. I thought you were a passionate woman, Evelyn. You seem like a stone.”

"Do I," she said, laughing, "I don’t feel like one. I’m only frightened. Don’t think me a fool.”

As she undid her hair she turned to look at him, and letting it fall she put her arms about him. She was already a different woman from the woman who had detained him at the piano, and he marvelled at the change, and was glad of it.

When he questioned her, she said —

"One does not always think the same, Owen, and now I can only think of you." And all there was of divinity in the world for him was revealed by her long delicate arms, the beautiful breasts, by the light which lit up her eyes, by the beautiful movements with which she surrounded him. And when the door closed behind him, she curled herself into a corner of the tumbled bed where she might sleep, feeling no scruples and hoping she would experience none. She had strayed from the road, and could only dimly discern its outline. She had abandoned her religion and deserted her father. She could not believe she was the woman who used to confess to Father Railston. She tried to think of herself as she certainly was three months ago, and could only remember herself in passing moments.... In a few hours Owen would come to tell her to get up. She must get to sleep. They were going to the races. Suddenly she awoke, and she saw him in his dressing-gown, with blue facings, standing in the middle of the room watching her. His little smile was in his eyes; they seemed to say, "So there you are; I haven’t lost you.”

He wished her to wear a flower-embroidered dress, but her fancy was set on a pale yellow muslin, and it amused her to get cross with him and to send him out of the room; but when the door closed she was moved to run after him. The grave question as to what she would wear dispelled other thoughts. She must be serious; and to please him she decided she would wear the gown he liked, and as she fixed the hat that went with it she admired the contrast of its purple with her rich hair. Owen was always right. She had never thought that she could look so well, and it was a happy moment when he took her by both hands and said —

“Dearest, you are delicious — quite delicious. You’ll be the prettiest woman at Longchamps to-day.”

She asked for tea, but he said they were in France, and must conform to French taste. When Marie Antoinette was informed that the people wanted bread, etc. Evelyn thought Marie Antoinette must have been a cruel woman. But she liked chocolate and the brioche, and henceforth they were brought to her bedside, and in a Sèvres service, a present from Owen.

When they had finished the little meal he rang for writing materials, and said —

“Now, my dear Evelyn, you must write to your father.”

"Must I? What shall I say? Oh, Owen, I cannot write! If I did, father would come over here, and then" —

"I’ll tell you what to say. I’ll dictate the letter you ought to write. You need not give him any address, but you must let him know you’re well, and why you intend to remain abroad. It is by relieving his mind on these subjects that you’ll save yourself from the vexation of his hunting you up here.... Come, now," he said, noticing the agonised and bewildered look on Evelyn’s face, "this is the only disagreeable hour in the day — you must put up with it. Here is the pen. Now write —

"‘MY DEAR FATHER, — I should be happy in Paris, very happy, if it were not for the knowledge of the grief that my flight must have occasioned you. Of course I have acted very wrongly, very wickedly'” —

"But," said Evelyn, "you told me I was acting rightly, that to do otherwise would be madness.”

"Yes, and I only told you the truth. But in writing to your father you must adopt the conventional tone. There’s no use in trying to persuade your father you did right.... I don’t know, though. Scratch out ‘I have acted wrongly and very wickedly,’ and write —

"‘I will not ask you to think that I have acted otherwise than wrongly, for, of course, as a father you can hold no other opinion, but being also a clever man, an artist, you will perhaps be inclined to admit that my wrongdoing is not so irreparable a wrongdoing as it might have been in other and easily imagined circumstances.’ Full stop.

“You’ve got that — ‘so irreparable a wrong-doing as it might have been in other and easily imagined circumstances’?”

“Yes.”

"‘Father dear, you know that if I had remained in Dulwich my voice would have been wasted, not through my fault or yours, but through the fault of circumstances.’

"You have got ‘circumstances’ a few lines higher up, so put ‘through the fault of fate.’”

“Father will never believe that I wrote this letter.”

“That doesn’t matter — the truth is the truth from whoever it conies.”

"‘We should have gone on deceiving ourselves, or trying to deceive ourselves, hoping as soon as the concerts paid that I should go abroad with a proper chaperon. You know, father dear, how we used to talk, both knowing well that no such thing could be. The years would have slipped by, and at five-and-thirty, when it would have been too late, I should have found myself exactly where I was when mother died. You would have reproached yourself, you would have suffered remorse, we should have both been miserable; whereas now I hope that we shall both be happy. You will bring about a revival of Palestrina, and I shall sing opera. Be reasonable, father, and remember that it had to be. Write to me if you can; to hear from you will make me very happy. But do not try to seek me out and endeavour to induce me to return home. Any meeting between us now would merely mean intolerable suffering to both of us, and it would serve no purpose whatever. A little later, when I have succeeded, when I am a great singer, I will come and see you — that is to say, if you will see me. Meanwhile, for a year or two we had better not meet, but I’ll write constantly, and shall look forward to your letters. Again, my dear father, I beseech you to be reasonable; everything will come right in the end. I will not conceal from you the fact that Sir Owen Asher advised me to this step. He is very fond of me, and is determined to help me in every way. When he brings me back to England a great singer, he hopes you will try to look on his fault with as much leniency as may be. He asks me to warn you against speaking of him in connection with me, for any accusation brought against him will injure me. He intends to provide me with a proper chaperon. I need not mention her name; suffice it to say that she is a very grand lady, so appearances will be preserved. No one need know anything for certain if you do not tell them. If you will promise to do this, I will send the name of the lady with whom I am going to live. You can say that I am living with her; her name will be a sufficient cloak — everyone will be satisfied. Interference can be productive of no good, remember that; let things take their natural course, and they will come right in the end. If you decide to do as I ask you, write at once to me, and address your letter to 31 Rue Faubourg St. Honoré, care of Monsieur Blanco. — Always, dear father, your affectionate daughter,

“‘EVELYN INNES.’”

"How clever you are," she said, looking up. "You have written just the kind of letter that will influence father. I have lived with father all my life, and yet I couldn’t have known how to write that letter. How did you think of it?”

"I’ve put the case truthfully, haven’t I? Now do you copy out that letter and address it; meanwhile I’ll go round to Voisin’s and order breakfast. Try to have it finished by the time I get back. We’ll post it on our way.”

She promised that she would do so, but instead sat a long while with the letter in her hands. It was so unlike herself that she could not bring herself to send it. It would not satisfy her father, he would sooner receive something from her own familiar heart, and, obeying a sudden impulse, she wrote —

"MY DARLING, — What must you think of me, I wonder! that I am an ungrateful girl? I hope not. I don’t think you would be so unjust as to think such things of me. I have been very wicked, but I have always loved you, father, and never more than now; and had anything in the world been able to stop me, it would have been my love of you. But, father dear, it was just as I told you; I was determined to resist the temptation if I could, but when the time came I could not. I did my best, indeed I did. I went through agony after agony after you left, and in the end I had to go whether I desired it or not. I could not have stopped in Dulwich any longer; if I had, I should have died, and then you would have lost me altogether. You would not have liked to see me pine away, grow white, and lie coughing on the sofa like poor mother. No, you would not. It would have killed you. You remember how ill I was last Easter when he was away in the Mediterranean, darling. We’ve always been pals, we’ve always told each other everything; we never had any secrets, and never shall. I should have died if I hadn’t gone away. Now I’ve told you everything — isn’t that so? — and when I come back a great success, you’ll come and hear me sing. My success would mean very little if you were not there. I would sooner see your dear darling face in a box than any crowned head in Europe. If I were only sure that you would forgive me? Everything else will turn out right. Owen will be good to me, I shall get on; I have little fear on that score. If I could only know that you were not too lonely, that you were not grieving too much. I shall write to Margaret and beg her to look after you. But she is very careless, and the grocer often puts down things in his book that we never had. A couple of years, and then we shall see each other again. Do you think, darling, you can live all that time without me? I must try to live that time without you. It will be hard to do so; I shall miss you dreadfully; so if you could manage to write to me, not too cross a letter, it would make a great deal of difference. Of course you are thinking of the disgrace I have brought on you. There need be none. Owen is going to provide me with a chaperon — a lady, he says, in the best society. I will send you her name next week, as soon as Owen hears from her. He may hear to-morrow, and if you say that I’m living with her, no one will know anything. It is deceitful, I know; I told Owen so, but he says that we are not obliged to take the whole world into our confidence. I don’t like it, but I suppose if one does the things one must put up with the consequences. Now I must say good-bye. I’ve expressed myself badly, but you’ll know what I mean — that I love you very dearly, that I hope you’ll forgive me, and be glad to see me when I come back, that I shall always be, your affectionate daughter,

"EVELYN.”

She put the letter into an envelope, and was addressing it when Owen came into the room.

"Have you copied the letter, dear?"

She looked at him inquiringly, and he wondered at her embarrassment.

"No," she said, "I have written quite a different letter. Yours was very clever, of course, but it was not like me. I’ve written a stupid little letter, but one which will please father better.”

“I daresay you’re right. If your father suspected the letter was dictated by me he would resent it.”

"That’s just what I thought.”

“Let me see the letter you have written.”

"No; don’t look at it. I’d rather you didn’t.”

"Why, dearest? Because there’s something about me in it?”

"No, indeed. I would not write anything about you that I wouldn’t show you. No; what I don’t want you to see is about myself.”

“About yourself! Well, as you like, don’t show me anything you don’t want to.”

“But I don’t like to have secrets from you, Owen; I hate secrets.”

“One of these days you’ll tell me what you’ve written. I’m quite satisfied." He raised her face and kissed her tenderly, and she felt that she loved him better for his well-assumed indifference. Then they went downstairs, and she admired her dress in the long glasses on the landings. She listened to his French as he asked for a stamp. The courtyard was full of sunlight and carriages. The pages pushed open the glass doors for them to pass, and, tingling with health and all the happiness and enchantment of love, she walked by his side under the arcade — glad when, in walking, they came against each other — swinging her parasol pensively, wondering what happy word to say, a little perplexed that she should have a secret from him, and all the while healthily hungry. Suddenly she recognised the street as the one where they had dined on Friday night. He pushed open a white-painted door, and it seemed to her that all the white-aproned waiters advanced. to meet her; and the one who drew the table forward that she might pass seemed to fully appreciate the honour of serving them. A number of hors d’oeuvres were placed before her, but she only ate bread-and-butter and a radish, until Owen insisted on her trying the filets d’anchois — the very ones she was originally most averse to. The sole was cooked very elaborately in a rich brown sauce. The tiny chicken which followed it was first shown to her in a tin saucepan; then the waiter took it away and carved it at a side-table. She enjoyed the melon which, for her sake, ended instead of beginning the meal, as Owen said it should.

An Englishman, a friend of Owen’s, sat at the next table, and she could see he regretted that Owen had not introduced him. Most of his conversation seemed designed for that end, and when they got up to go, his eyes surely said, “Well, I wish that he had introduced us; I think we should have got on together." And the eyes of the young man who sat at the opposite table said, as plain as any words, "I’d have given anything to have been introduced! Shall we ever meet again?”

So her exit was very thrilling; and no sooner were they on the pavement than another surprise was in store for her.

A smart coachman touched his hat, and Owen stepped back for her to get into the victoria.

"But this is not our carriage?”

“You did not think we were going to the Longchamps in a fiacre, did you? This is your carriage — I bought these horses yesterday for you.”

You bought this carriage and these horses for me, Owen?”

“Yes, dear, I did; don’t let’s waste time. Aux courses!”

"Owen, dear, I cannot accept such a present. I appreciate your kindness, but you will not ask me to accept this carriage and horses.”

“Why not?”

Evelyn thought for some time before answering.

"It would only make people think that I was an amateur. The fine clothes you have bought me I shall not be able to wear, except when I want you to think me nice. I shall have to learn Italian, of which I don’t know a word, and French, of which I know very little.”

Owen looked at her, at once pleased and surprised.

“You’re quite right,” he said; “this carriage and these horses are unsuitable to your present circumstances. The chestnuts took my fancy.... However, I haven’t paid for them. I’ll send them back for the present; they, or a pair like them, will come in all right later on.”

After a slight pause she said —

"I do not want to run into your debt more than I can help. If my voice develops, if it be all you think it is, I shall be able to go on the stage in a year — at latest in a year and a half from now. My mother was paid three and four hundred a week. Unless I fail altogether, I shall have no difficulty in paying you back the money you so generously lent me.”

"But why do you want to cost me nothing?”

“I don’t know. Why shouldn’t I pay you back? If I succeed, I shall have plenty of money; if I don’t, I daresay you’ll overlook the debt. Owen, dear, how enchanting it is to be with you in Paris, to wear these beautiful dresses, to drive in this carriage, to see those lovely horses, and to wonder what the races will be like! You’re not disappointed in me? I’m as nice as you thought I’d be?”

“Yes; you’re a great deal nicer. I was afraid at one time you might be a bore; scruples of conscience aren’t very interesting. But somehow in your case they don’t seem to matter.”

"I do try to keep them to myself. There’s no use in inflicting one’s personal worries on others. I am all one thing or all the other. When I’m with you, I’m afraid I’m all the other.”

He had always known that he could “make something of her," as he used to put it to himself, but she exceeded his expectations; she certainly was an admirable mistress. Her scruples did not bore him; they were, indeed, a novelty and an excitement which he would not willingly be without. Moreover, she was so intelligent! he had not yet heard her make a stupid remark. She had always been interested in the right things; and, excited by her admiration of the wooden balconies, the metal lanterns hanging from them, the vases standing on the steps leading to the porticoes, he attempted a reading of these villas.

“How plain is this paganism," he said. “Seeing them, we cannot but think of their deep feather-beds, the savoury omelettes made of new-laid eggs served at midday, and followed by juicy beefsteaks cooked in the best butter. Those villas are not only typical of Passy, but of France; their excellent life ascends from the peasant’s cottage; they are the result of agriculture, which is the original loveliness. All that springs from agriculture must be beautiful, just as all that springs from commerce must be vile. Manchester is the ugliest place on the earth, and the money of every individual cotton-spinner serves to multiply the original ugliness — -the house he builds, the pictures he buys. Isn’t that so?”

"I can’t say, dear; I have never been to Manchester. But how can you think of such things?”

“Don’t you like those villas? I love them, and their comfort is secure; its root is in the earth, the only thing we are sure of. There is more of pagan life and sentiment in France than elsewhere. Would you not like to have a Passy villa? Would you not like to live here?”

"One of (these days I may buy one, then you shall come to breakfast, and I’ll give you an omelette and a beefsteak. For the present, I shall have to put up with something less expensive. I must be near my music lessons. Thanks all the same, dearest.”

She sought a reason for the expression of thoughtfulness which had suddenly come over his face.

"I don’t know how it is, but I never see Paris without thinking of Balzac. You don’t know Balzac; one of these days you must read him. The moment I begin to notice Paris, I think, feel, see, and speak Balzac. That dark woman yonder, with her scornful face, fills my mind with Balzacian phrases — the celebrated courtesan, celebrated for her diamonds and her vices, and so on. The little woman in the next carriage, the Princesse de Saxeville, would delight him. He would devote an entire page to the description of her coat of arms — three azure panels, and so on. And I should read it, for Balzac made all the world beautiful, even snobbery. All interesting people are Balzacians. The moment I know that a man is an admirer of Balzac, a sort of freemasonry is established between us, and I am interested in him, as I should be in a man who had loved a woman whom I had loved.”

"But I shouldn’t like a woman because I knew that you had loved her.”

"You are a woman; but men who have loved the same women will seek each other from the ends of the earth, and will take an intense pleasure in their recollections. I don’t know whether that aphorism is to be found in Balzac; if not, it is an accident that prevented him from writing it, for it is quite Balzacian — only he would give it a turn, an air of philosophic distinction to which it would be useless for me to pretend.”

"I wonder if I should like him. Tell me about him.”

"You would be more likely than most women to appreciate him. Supposing you put the matter to the test. You would not accept these horses, maybe you will not refuse a humbler present — an edition of Balzac. There’s a very good one in fifty-two volumes.”

"So many as that?”

"Yes; and not one too many — each is a masterpiece. In this enormous work there are something like two thousand characters, and these appear in some books in principal, in other books in subordinate, parts. Balzac speaks of them as we should of real people. A young lady is going to the opera and to a ball afterwards, and he says —

"‘It is easy to imagine her delight and expectation, for was she not going to meet the delicious Duchesse de la Maufregneuse, and her friend the celebrated Madame d’Espard, Coralis, Lucien de Rubempré and Rastignac.’

“These people are only mentioned in the Mémoires de deux jeunes Mariées. But they are heroes and heroines in other books, in Les Secrets de la Princesse de Cadignan, Le Père Goriot, and Les Illusions Perdues. Before you even begin to know Balzac, you must have read at least twenty volumes. There is a vulgarity about those who don’t know Balzac; we, his worshippers, recognise in each other a refinement of sense and a peculiar comprehension of life. We are beings apart; we are stamped with the seal of that great mind. You should hear us talk among ourselves. Everyone knows that Popinot is the sublime hero of L’Interdiction, but for the moment some feeble Balzacian does not remember the other books he appears in, and is ashamed to ask.... But I’m boring you.”

"No, no; I love to listen. It is more interesting than any play.”

Owen looked at her questioningly, as if he doubted the flattery, which, at the bottom of his heart, he knew to be quite sincere.

"You cannot understand Paris until you have read Balzac. Balzac discovered Paris; he created Paris. You remember just now what I said of those villas? I was thinking at the moment of Balzac. For he begins one story by a reading of the human characteristics to be perceived in its streets. He says that there are mean streets, and streets that are merely honest; there are young streets about whose morality the public has not yet formed any opinion; there are murderous streets — streets older than the oldest hags; streets that we may esteem — clean streets, work-a-day streets, and commercial streets. Some streets, he says, begin well and end badly. The Rue Montmartre, for instance, has a fine head, but it ends in the tail of a fish. How good that is. You don’t know the Rue Montmartre? I’ll point it out next time we’re that way. But you know the Rue de la Paix?”

"Yes; what does that mean?”

"The Rue de la Paix, he says, is a large street, and a grand street, but it certainly doesn’t awaken the gracious and noble thoughts that the Rue Royale suggests to every sensitive mind; nor has it the dignity of the Place Vendôme. The Place de la Bourse, he says, is in the daytime babble and prostitution, but at night it is beautiful. At two o’clock in the morning, by moonlight, it is a dream of old Greece.”

"I don’t see much in that. What you said about the villas was quite as good.”

Fearing that the conversation lacked a familiar and personal interest, he sought a transition, an idea by which he could connect it with Evelyn herself. With this object he called her attention to two young men who, he pretended, reminded him of Rastignac and Morny. That woman in the mail phaeton was an incipient Madame Marneffe; that dark woman now looking at them with ardent, amorous eyes might be an Esther.

"We're all creatures of Balzac’s imagination. You," he said, turning a little so that he might see her better, "are intensely Balzacian.”

“Do I remind you of one of his characters?" Evelyn became more keenly interested. "Which one?”

“You are more like a character he might have painted than anyone I can think of in the "Human Comedy." He certainly would have been interested in your temperament. But I can’t think which of his women is like you. You are more like the adorable Lucien; that is to say, up to the present.”

“Who was Lucien?”

"He was the young poet whom all Paris fell in love with. He came up to Paris with a married woman; I think they came from Angoulême. I haven’t read Lost Illusions for twenty years. She and he were the stars in the society of some provincial town, but when they arrived in Paris each thought the other very common and countrified. He compares her with Madame d’Espard; she compares him with Rastignac; Balzac completes the picture with a touch of pure genius — ‘They forgot that six months would transform them both into exquisite Parisians.’ How good that is, what wonderful insight into life!”

"And do they become Parisians?”

"Yes, and then they both regret that they broke off” —

"Could they not begin it again?”

“No; it is rarely that a liaison can be begun again — life is too hurried. We may not go back; the past may never become the present — ghosts come between.”

"Then if I broke it off with you, or you broke it off with me, it would be for ever?”

"Do not let us discuss such unpleasant possibilities”; and he continued to search the "Human Comedy" for a woman resembling Evelyn. “You are essentially Balzacian — all interesting things are — but I cannot remember any woman in the ‘Human Comedy’ like you — Honorine, perhaps.”

"What does she do?”

“She’s a married woman who has left her husband for a lover who very soon deserts her. Her husband tries in vain to love other women, but his wife holds his affections and he makes every effort to win her back. The story is mainly an account of these efforts.”

"Does he succeed?”

“Yes. Honorine goes back to her husband, but it cost her her life. She cannot live with a man she doesn’t love. That is the point of the story.”

"I wonder why that should remind you of me?”

"There is something delicate, rare, and mystical about you both. But I can’t say I place Honorine very high among Balzac’s works. There are beautiful touches in it, but I think he failed to realise the type. You are more virile, more real to me than Honorine. No; on the whole, Balzac has not done you. He perceived you dimly. If he had lived it might, it certainly would, have been otherwise. There is, of course, the Duchesse Langeais. There is something of you in her; but she is no more than a brilliant sketch, no better than Honorine. There is Eugénie Grandet. But no; Balzac never painted your portrait.”

Like all good talkers, he knew how to delude his listeners into the belief that they were taking an important part in the conversation. He allowed them to speak, he solicited their opinions, and listened as if they awakened the keenest interest in him; he developed what they had vaguely suggested. He paused before their remarks, he tempted his listener into personal appreciations and sudden revelations of character. He addressed an intimate vanity and became the inspiration of every choice, and in a mysterious reticulation of emotions, tastes and ideas, life itself seemed to converge to his ultimate authority. And having induced recognition of the wisdom of his wishes, he knew how to make his yoke agreeable to bear; it never galled the back that bore it, it lay upon it soft as a silken gown. Evelyn enjoyed the gentle imposition of his will. Obedience became a delight, and, in its intellectual sloth, life floated as in an opium dream without end, dissolving as the sunset dissolves in various modulations. Obedience is a divine sensualism; it is the sensualism of the saints; its lassitudes are animated with deep pauses and thrills of love and worship. We lift our eyes, and a great joy fills our hearts, and we sink away into blisses of remote consciousness. The delights of obedience are the highest

felicities of love, and these Evelyn had begun to experience. She had ascended already into this happy nowhere. She was aware of him, and a little of the brilliant goal whither he was leading her. She was the instrument, he was the hand that played upon it, and all that had happened from hour to hour in their mutual existence revealed in some new and unexpected way his mastery over life. She had seen great ladies bowing to him, smiling upon him in a way that told their intention to get him away from her. She had heard scraps of his conversation with the French and English noblemen who had stopped to speak to him; and now, as Owen was getting into the victoria, after a brief visit to some great lady who had sent her footman to fetch him, a man, who looked to Evelyn like a sort of superior groom, came breathless to their carriage. He had only just heard that Owen was on the course. He was the great English trainer from Chantilly, and had tried Armide II. to win with a stone more on his back than he had to carry.

"That is the horse," and Owen pointed to a big chestnut. "The third horse — orange and white sleeves, black cap... they are going now for the preliminary canter. We shall have just time to back him. There is a Pari Mutuel a little way down the course; or shall we back the horse in the ring? No, it is too late to get across the course. The Pari Mutuel will do. Isn’t the racecourse like an English lawn, like an overgrown croquet-ground? and the horses go round by these plantations.”

It was not fashionable, he admitted, for a lady to leave her carriage, but no one knew her. It did not matter, and the spectacle amused her. But there was only time to catch a glimpse of beautiful toilettes, actresses and princesses, and the young men standing on the steps of the carriages. Owen whispered the names of the most celebrated, and told her she should know them when she was on the stage. At present it would be better for her to live quietly — unknown; her lessons would take all her time. He talked as he hastened her towards where a crowd had collected. She saw what looked like a small omnibus, with a man distributing tickets. Owen took five louis out of her purse and handed them to the man, who in return handed her a ticket. They would see the race better from their carriage, but it was pleasanter to stroll about the warm grass and admire the little woods which surrounded this elegant pleasureground, the white painted stands with all their flags flying on the blue summer air, the glitter of the carriages, the colour of the parasols, the bright jackets and caps of the jockeys, the rhythmical movement of the horses. Some sailed along with their heads low, others bounded, their heads high in the air. While Owen watched Evelyn’s pleasure, his face expressed a cynical good humour. He was glad she was pleased, and he was flattered that he was influencing her. No longer was she wasting her life, the one life which she had to live. He was proud of his disciple, and he delighted in her astonishment, when, having made sure that Armide II. had won, he led her back to the Pari Mutuel, and bidding her hold out her hands, saw that forty louis were poured into them.

Then Evelyn could not believe that she was in her waking senses, and it took some time to explain to her how she had won so much money; and when she asked why all the poor people did not come and do likewise, since it was so easy, Owen said that he had had more sport seeing her win five-and-thirty louis than he had when he won the Gold Cup at Ascot. It almost inclined him to go in for racing again. Evelyn could not understand the circumstance and, still explaining the odds, he told the coachman that they would not wait for the last race. He had tied her forty louis into her pocket-handkerchief, and feeling the weight of the gold in her hand she leant back in the victoria, lost in the bright, penetrating happiness, of that summer evening. Paris, graceful and indolent — Paris returning through a whirl of wheels, through pleasuregrounds, green swards and long shining roads — instilled a fever of desire into the blood, and the soul cried that life should be made wholly of such light distraction.

The wistful light seemed to breathe all vulgarity from the procession of pleasure-seekers returning from the. races. An aspect of vision stole over the scene. Owen pointed to the group of pines by the lake’s edge, to the gondola-like boat moving through the pink stillness; and the cloud in the water, he said, was more beautiful than the cloud in heaven. He spoke of the tea-house on the island, of the shade of the trees, of the lush grass, of the chatter of the nursemaids and ducks. He proposed, and she accepted, that they should go there to-morrow. The secret of their lips floated into their eyes, its echoes drifted through their souls like a faint strain played on violins; and neither spoke for fear of losing one of the faint vibrations. Evelyn settled her embroidered gown over her feet as the carriage swept around the Arc de Triomphe.

"That is our rose garden," he said, pointing to Paris, which lay below them glittering in the evening light, “You remember that I used to read you ‘Omar’?”

"Yes, I remember. Not three days ago, yet it seems far away.”

"But you do not regret — you would not go back?”

"I could not if I would.”

"It has been a charming day, hasn’t it?”

"Yes.”

“And it isn’t over yet. I have ordered dinner at the Café des Ambassadeurs. I’ve got a table on the balcony. The balcony overlooks the garden, and the stage is at the end of the garden, so we shall see the performance as we dine. The comic songs, the can-can dancers, and the acrobats will be a change after Wagner. I hope you’ll like the dinner.”

He took a card from his pocket and read the menu.

“There is no place in Paris where you get a better petite marmite than the Ambassadeurs. I have ordered, you see, filets de volaille, pointes d’asperges. The filets de volaille are the backs of the chickens, the tit-bits; the rest — the legs and the wings — go to make the stock; that is why the marmite is so good. Timbale de homard à l’Americaine is served with a brown sauce garnished with rice. You ought to find it excellent. If we were in autumn I should have ordered a pheasant Sauvaroff. A bird being impossible, I allowed myself to be advised by the head waiter. He assured me they have some very special legs of lamb; they have just received them from Normandy; you will not recognise it as the stringy, tasteless thing that in England we know as leg of lamb. Soufflé au paprike — this soufflé is seasoned not with red pepper, which would produce an intolerable thirst, nor with ordinary pepper, which would be arid and tasteless, but with an intermediate pepper which will just give a zest to the last glass of champagne. There is a parfait — that comes before the soufflé, of course. I don’t think we can do much better. Are you not glad that you came to Paris with me?”

"Yes, Owen, I’m glad — I suppose I’m glad, but ” —

"But what, dear?" and he scrutinised the slightly perplexed expression.

"I don’t know that I can explain.”

She felt it to be wrong without being able to find words to express her thoughts. The scene appeared to her like a pastry-cook’s shop, empty of the substance of life.

"But I’ve come here to study; if it were not for my singing I don’t think I could stay here. I’ve not come here to go to races nor to dine at expensive restaurants. Let’s go to some humble little place. I should like it much better.”